Post by Chochma Yid on Nov 18, 2008 15:44:50 GMT -5
brought over from the msn board to remind myself of how much I have grown and as an example of one type of kvetch.
Dearest Husband:
It is Valentine's Day- a day I've come to dislike more each year. Several days agon on our anniversary you asked me where I'd like to go to celebrate. I came back with an answer: how about the church's Valentine banquet . . .you rejected and did not make a second offer. I got you a valentine- something you enjoy but I don't- but I got nothing. . . .
For a long time now I have not felt loved. You buy your own groceries, wash your own plate, do your own (only) laundry (no towels or sheets), and do your own thing. I have tried to find things to do with you but anything I do to be compatible becomes misconstrued as something I firmly believe in and am as gungho about as you are . . .
. . .would you love me again if I played violent video games with you? . . . would you love me if I voted for your candidates for political office, would you love me if I went to Sunday only church with you IF you decide to go . . .would you love me if I drank with you? Would it be worth it? NO -it would not be worth it just like it was not worth the Olypic committee making Eric Liddel run on what he knew to be Shabbat. Do I want you to love me or the hollowdeck model of me?
Are you so insecure that i have to rubber stamp everything you say? . . . I can't do that so I remain silent and affirm that which I can. . . .
To be sure in my heart you're forgiven but my soul is fragile and remains that way. . . . I pray regularily that G-d will keep his angels working with our daughter so that she does not go too far away from Him and that she won't be seriously hurt in the process. (of life choices).
I know you love me in your own way. I pray that I might see it-- understand it- and accept it with grace. And doing so, love you in Jesus so that maybe you'll come back to where you once were. . . .
I've been praying for a Nathan like King David had-- maybe I was to be that Nathan after all
Good night
I love you
Dearest Husband:
It is Valentine's Day- a day I've come to dislike more each year. Several days agon on our anniversary you asked me where I'd like to go to celebrate. I came back with an answer: how about the church's Valentine banquet . . .you rejected and did not make a second offer. I got you a valentine- something you enjoy but I don't- but I got nothing. . . .
For a long time now I have not felt loved. You buy your own groceries, wash your own plate, do your own (only) laundry (no towels or sheets), and do your own thing. I have tried to find things to do with you but anything I do to be compatible becomes misconstrued as something I firmly believe in and am as gungho about as you are . . .
. . .would you love me again if I played violent video games with you? . . . would you love me if I voted for your candidates for political office, would you love me if I went to Sunday only church with you IF you decide to go . . .would you love me if I drank with you? Would it be worth it? NO -it would not be worth it just like it was not worth the Olypic committee making Eric Liddel run on what he knew to be Shabbat. Do I want you to love me or the hollowdeck model of me?
Are you so insecure that i have to rubber stamp everything you say? . . . I can't do that so I remain silent and affirm that which I can. . . .
To be sure in my heart you're forgiven but my soul is fragile and remains that way. . . . I pray regularily that G-d will keep his angels working with our daughter so that she does not go too far away from Him and that she won't be seriously hurt in the process. (of life choices).
I know you love me in your own way. I pray that I might see it-- understand it- and accept it with grace. And doing so, love you in Jesus so that maybe you'll come back to where you once were. . . .
I've been praying for a Nathan like King David had-- maybe I was to be that Nathan after all
Good night
I love you